Thursday, August 13, 2009

aspiring insomniac

It's amazing the things that people will think up when they can't sleep. In case you haven't guessed, it's almost 1:30 in the morning and my mind is going about a parsec every second. If only it would slow down a bit I might be able to fall into that state known as sleep. But still, it eludes me.

I've been thinking about the way society places expectations on the behavior of its inhabitants. Take myself for instance, one would think that the most natural and "logical" thing to do would be for me to go back to my previous job. And while that is most certainly the logical thing to do, does my mind agree with that? Of course not. All that I can think of is how I'd much rather be doing something else, and even though I do need the work, I would be so much happier if I were pursuing something different. I worked there for a while, and it's not a bad place to work per se, but I am bored with it. Frankly, I've discovered about myself that I get bored rather easily with monotony, and that's all it is - monotony.

It would probably be far easier to simply follow along with the dictates of society, but what about those of us who think differently? Why is it that anyone wanting to blaze their own trail through this life is looked at with skeptical criticism - until and unless they succeed to the "ideal" expectations of society. It is a rather annoying situation to say the least.

I have thought up a remedy for me, at least. As I tend to become bored and restless following other people's plans for my life and how to spend my time. I am simply going to stop. I am considering starting my own business, and therefore becoming the mistress of my own destiny. The commander of my own fate. If I succeed, it shall be because of my own determination, and the various helpful people along the way. It shall not be because I followed some preset "guidelines" placed by our society.

Wish me luck, or not. But I'm on my way to new and far more interesting things. :)

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